I wanna see blood. Buckets of it, loads of it... I need gore, maybe not someone's intestines but something gooey and red and sticky, coming from some person's somewhere...
I need to dip my hand in red, thick, hot water since the smell of actual blood makes me kinda dizzy. Then wash my face in it.
I actually want to see my own blood too but don't like the pain afterwards.
Last but not least, I wanna hide these sentences somewhere since people would think I'm on a period of suicidal thoughts or self loathing or something... That is not the case though, this is just me being creepy.